Plan

got cancelled. So no updates.

I am...

ONE less again!
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
It hurts. Kaafi saara!
Left a hole in my room, you bum! You doll. You squeaky little mousie. You silly billy.
:|
That is life for me, and for all.
Happy at times, lonely at others.
The wait starts again.

Can

we stop the mind from functioning?
I want to do that.
Might try on 31st@11:59pm.

My Punctured Edifice

I built it brick by brick.
I used my HAPPY trick.
Someone came and gave it a prick.
My edifice, it got punctured.

Nothing seemed to bend it, then.
Nothing seems to mend it, now.

They are back.
Though a little slackened.
The ghost memoirs from the past,
They haunt as they return.
I only can wish,
They fade away fast.

Naughty...

I have been tagged so.
By all the people around.
If something goes wrong, anywhere, I am blamed.
If something fishy happens, I am blamed.
I cry aloud and plead innocence.
It keeps happening.
Again and again and YET again!
In the end, I realise, I actually am to be blamed.
LOL.

Horrible

Have you ever felt horrible for daysssss altogether?
I have.
I am still feeling that.
And I am not liking the self because of that.
Can somebody call the fire brigade?
:(

24, 25, 26

No post=no reason :|

Mind Speak

Like slippery sand,
From your hand,
I fell.

A pierced soul,
A battered heart.
Like foul art.

I sit and ponder.
It is no wonder.
Honesty has no takers.
It goes down the bin at the bakers.

To hell with the world and its inhabitants.
I stay put.
I stay shut.
In my cosy shell.
I do quite well.

Cheats

What evil pleasures do they derive out of hurting people who have done them no harm?
:(

A

God has been merciful.
He created supply even before I demanded.
First A-Two.
Then N.
Then I realised that in all this hullaballoo I had the time to miss A.
Such is the importance of A.
Today morning A sms-ed.
And was I happy?
:D

E

E seems to be improving.
Felt good to know and realise :)
Happy like never before!

Post! Pssst!
Slept yet AGAIN!

Sleep

You Know Who needs a lot of sleep.
Tired.
Happy.
Very.
Feels good to have so many people in the house.
One count less makes hell of a difference.
Life is Good!
You Know Who is thankful.
:)

A-Two

You Know Who is sitting in a closed room.
This is being done to keep THE excitement at bay.
Thinking of so many things at the moment.
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Day started bad.
You Know Who got damn angry.
Shouted at ONE and attracted a few eyeballs.
Doesn't happen often.
Good it did.
LOL
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You Know Who met A-Two after about 10 days.
A-Two and You Know Who went mad with joy.
It was sheer bliss to be back together :)
A-Two couldn't stop hugging You Know Who.
And You Know Who couldn't stop giggling.
Exchanged all the major tidbits.
Spent a solid one hour plus together (rare thingy).
Shared 'our' drink.
Saw so many photographs.
A-Two is a rare find and a special one.
Haina?
Love You!
Oh yeah A-Two got You Know Who something really special.
Thank You so much!
*Hugs*
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One

Dependance.
You Know Who does not like it.
Na Na Na.
You Know Who was not there, and all was RED!
What was built in years, came crashing down in a jiffy!
Better planning?!
Pray he saw.
Pray he'd do something about it.
.

Silent games

Silence, no matter how much you like it, can kill.
Then why is silence still a preferred option?
A spoken word, may hurt, but it won't certainly kill.
No?
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What would you say to me, if that was the last thing you could?
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What if tomorrow on, I choose to not talk?
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None

No post written on 15th December as You Know Who was sleeping.
Clapping!

A

A told You Know Who that A has noticed that You Know Who gets a very very warm welcome wherever You Know Who goes.
Agree.
And looks are deceptive.
Ha ha.
*Sheepish grin*
*Bells of wicked laughter in the head*
*Silent from the outside*
*Hulchul within*
Maybe You Know Who is good. Or MAY BE!

Method to the MADness

Have you ever tried finding it?
You Know Who does that all the time and makes the self more confused.
You Know Who loves to confuse the self as much as You Know Who loves to confuse people.
Tangle, Untangle.
Tangle, Untangle.
Tangle, Untangle. ;)

THE DAY

There were bigger butterflies than I thought there would be!
The silly thing was that only 'I' had them!
But that was Morgen.
The rest of the day went smooth.
It was SUPER DUPER!
A classic.
And I am smiling since so many hours now.
And my cheeks are hurting.
And the ANGEL called me BANG when I was beginning to wonder when we would talk next.
:)

Day Two...

to the countdown was fun!
Nervousness gone, excitement in.
Have never enjoyed a W so much.
Never attended one like this.
:D
Tomorrow's gonna be very funny.
The butter will fly again.
I love my Angel.
God Bless her (them)!
Muaaahhhh......
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Tonight I am going to sleep next to 6 crates full of:
1.Wine
2.Smirnoff and
3.Whisky.
Hope I don't get up drunk tomorrow.
Hick!
God!

:D

:) Oh God!
Wow!
When you don't ask for anything you get the best!
I just got THE BEST
:)
Yayyyyy!!!

Flying Butter

Why does the butter fly
When days come near by?
Scary dude!
Damn!
(Never had so many emotional highs together: Happy, Excited, Scared, Lonely, Comfortably Lonely.)
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Looking forward to the life ahead. Really.
Today, I am really really really smiling a lot.
A very very good day I had.
Indeed.

Smile

I have been told often.
I smile not.
Or I smile a little.
Or I don't smile like I should.
Have been trying hard to smile a lot now.
Thought it was working.
For, someone told me I smile a lot now.
But.
Thud.
The other day ONE said: Why are you so serious in life?
Huh.
And today again I was told (by a random person) that I should smile much more.
It ain't easy dude.
Is it necessary that one should smile to show that one is happy?
No.
But, I realise that a smile can spread cheer around.
So, shall try again. :)

Lost

Ever tried getting lost?
Try.
Ever tried finding the unknown?
Find.
Ever did something that makes YOU happy?
Do.
Ever dared to do what you dread?
Dare.
Life's running away.
Don't let go.
Live for the moment and keep smiling :)
Cheers!

:)

One Sad
One Happy
One Sad
One Happy
One Sad
One Happy
One Sad
One Happy
One Sad
One Happy
I will be formally joining the forces and try to remain Happy Ever After.

Tussle

The tussle is tearing me apart.
I don't like it.
It is like being forced to be what you are not.
I am Happy and I want to remain so.
And these days:
One day I am happy and calm (the usual self)
One day I am too low and restless (so unlike me)
Just when things start looking nice and brighter,
the bubble bursts.
Ye sab kya ho raha hai?
Untangle me and leave me alone, else...

Drunk

I am high on a song.
Have heard it thrice on the radio today itself.
Have been trying hard to find it.
Have e-mailed the best possible sources, so that I can know the album name.
P.S.: I am looking for the remix and NOT the Nusrat version.
Ye jo halka halka suroor hai,
Ye teri nazar ka kusoor hai
Ke sharaab peena sikha diya
Just love it :D
Have been very, very happy since I've heard it.
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And here's an update!
After a long day of struggle, I FINALLY found it on my own! Achievement!
Clapping!

Shhh...

I like the sound of silence.
Silence is me.
In the process of being silent, I:
Didn't answer a few calls,
Didn't reply to the pings,
Didn't talk to those who wished to talk to me.
Sorry people!

Frrreeee...Fire!

You Know Who wants to freeze everything and be Happy :)
You Know Who sits squatted on the rooftop.
Pours some kerosene oil.
Lights a matchstick.
Burns the brain.
Swooooooossssshhhh.
Oh, but You Know Who was supposed to freeze everything and not set anything ablaze.
:O
Now?

Night

Lent, my ear to the night.
Heard, the sound of the wind.
Saw, the trees leaving their places.
Strolling, they twisted their bodies.
They yawned a little, gossiped a bit.
Warned them to return to their places soon,
lest the sun rises and YOU see them.

So much

There is so much to do.
There is much time as well.
Then WHY is something not being done about it?
Duh!

I wonder...

...what Captain Jack Sparrow is really like.
...A Pea-NUT!
...I think...I am quite sure of that :D

Butterflies

D, You Know Who doesn't know why is scared (keeping a track of the number of days left),
He scared You Know Who too!
And soon, he (one of the fistful) will go away too. :(
Besties to D :)

What happens when...

...something you planned since ages, falters.
...something you know is bound to happen, doesn't.
...something you move closer to, slides farther away.
...something you've nurtured lovingly, dies.

And then, all of a sudden, something you really want, makes way for itself (in a way).
You Know Who just hopes the way "it" has made way for itself, "it" makes itself HAPPEN also.
Tomorrow is the day.
Amen.

Tired

You Know Who is drained of all the energy.
You Know Who's head spins.
You Know Who does not like STUPID STUFF!
You Know Who is plain tired.
RIP.
Break.
Death.

LLB i.e. Legally Blonde

You Know Who went for a concert today.
You Know Who invited two friends also.
You Know Who's friends more-than-readily agreed to come.
Midway You Know Who realised that You Know Who messed up the dates.
Meaning the concert was not to be held today.
You Know Who sat midway (in a public place) and laughed and laughed.
You Know Who then gathered the senses and messaged the two friends: apology.
You Know Who's two friends still came to meet You Know Who.
You Know Who declared You Know Who Legally Blonde.
Still, You Know Who had a great time with the two friends.
All's well that ends well :)

D the Dost

My apologies to D the greats.
In the last post, You Know Who forgot to mention an important task.
You Know Who has to meet D, which is over-pending now.
You Know Who acts gingery. Soweee and thanks for bearing.
We shall meet the soons.
Happys?

Things to do

1.E-mail B,
2.Read old newspapers and magazines,
3.Go meet R,
4.Visit Olive,
5.Read the Art and Asthetics brochure,
6.Gorge on Godiva,
7.Meet Mayank T,
8.Meet Anthony B,
9.Go London,
10.Go New York. (Sorry Chubby Cheeks, no money :|)

You Know Who hopes to do all this and much more in this life only.

You Know Who KNOWS

You Know Who KNOWS what You Know Who wants.
You Know Who lost the Big Fight today (or so they think).
But, You Know Who thinks You Know Who won as You Know Who said NO to what You Know Who does not want, howsoever tempting it maybe.
God Bless You Know Who. May the sanity remain.
Amen.

Happy and Confused

These are You Know Who's two states of mind. Mostly.
Though there is one more state that has gripped You Know Who of late.
You Know Who is trying hard to let go that state of mind
You Know Who is a Happy person.
Happy is You Know Who's perfume also. It makes You Know Who happier to wear Happy.
You Know Who fails to understand why some people love to embrace sadness.
Why can't people just be happy and make You Know Who's life even happier?!
You Know Who is a confused soul as well.
And You Know Who loves to confuse people in turn.
And that makes You Know Who YOU KNOW WHO.

One small Question

All over I see the OSO dialogue...
If you really really want something...
Will somebody answer this for me:
What if we really really DO NOT want something to happen in a certain way?
PLEASE DON'T give me Murphy's law in answer.

The Royal Drag

Started the day with many great thoughts about the tasks-to-be-accomplished.
Did only one.
Saw a movie, and was asked the reason why I liked it.
I like answering questions. They do for you what you do not do for yourself.
At times, they leave you pondering.
At other times, they make you face the answers that are 'all' 'ready' within.
Anyway, back to the Royal Drag.
It has been happening for quite some time now.
Lots of things to do; quite a bit of time in hand; yet the day seems to drag You Know Who like the wind forces the rain to sway in its direction.
Sometimes it is good to let the wind have its say, but then, 'how long' is what You Know Who should ask the self.

Numbers ain't nothing

There are people who believe in numbers. I do too.
But then, where friends are concerned, I feel, even if there is one, he/she can make ALL the difference in your little world.
Ain't it?
Just a thought.
Something I thought of, while I was talking to the neighbour again.
Neighbour hai to bacha, but baatein bahut achi karta hai. Always makes the khadoos me ishmile :D
God Bless him.

Ye Raat Abhi Dhal Jayegi

....ye baat abhi badal jayegi.
A line from Panchi by Jal.
Whenever You Know Who plays this song, You Know Who re-winds it to listen to this line again and again.
All of us at a time in life seek the answer to this line....Ye Raat Kab dhalegi?
And Jab dhal jaati hai tab hum sochte hain, ye to hona hi tha....
It is the dark night that makes us cherish the bright day in a more humble manner than
otherwise.

Memory and Memories

I have a new neighbour at work. Was talking to him for quite some time randomly.
We happened to talk about photography, and then he uttered the name Samar Nakhate.
As the memory always lets me down with names, I didn't react for a while, until he told me further about the person.
Later, it rung a dong in the head. BAM!
Nakhate Sir, I recalled, was my professor at SIBM.
Known as Baba to some, Nakhate Sir, is one man, whose simplicity and knowledge would surely bog down any one who has a quest to learn.
He uses this particular swear word, which has become a cult statement of a certain sort; very, very famous among his admirers.
When we meet people like Nakhate Sir in life, it alters the way we live and think. Such is the impact of great knowledge and simplicity.
He is one person who takes pride in his being. Not many 'self-proud' people have such a following. He does. And that, I suppose says it all.
In remembrance...I smile.

Thread

Have done so much in the last two years and yet nothing at all.
Have thought a lot.
Have been exclusively with the self.
Have discovered a few things.
Have been unusually quiet.
And now, all of a sudden, say since the past few months, started talking, started meeting people.
It was tough. Very.
And today, after a very smooth day, I am feeling unusually low.
Something is troubling me, can't exactly figure out what. It could be either of the two things.
I want to just go away. Far away.
Peace.
Period.

Back to life?

All the senses that were lost seem to be coming back.
You Know Who can 'feel' again, laugh again, and cry as well!
Cold no more.
The connection with the biggest You Know Who of the world has also been restored (even if partly).
It took two years plus to be back to the self.
Everything has changed.
As You Know Who wakes up, there is chaos all around.
A lot has been lost.
A lot has to be gained.
And in the center is You Know Who. Calm most of the times, uneasy at others.
Figuring what happened all this while.
Figuring what next.


God Bless You Know Who.

You

So this one's for you!
Let us see if you come to know it is you You Know Who is writing about.
Well, after reading, don't go ooooh aaahhh I am being written about!
You Know Who is writing this because You Know Who asked the self some of these questions (and maybe still is doing that) and You Know Who strongly feels that you should do that too .
Where are you headed in life?
Why are there so many things you are doing at one go?
Why don't you channelise your energies towards the one thing that you really really want. And believe You Know Who, if you do that, all other things would fall in place on their own. Serious.
Why are you over it (her) but still not? (This is not applicable to You Know Who o' course)
God Bless YOU.
So come on, rise and shine and tell You Know Who who You Know Who is writing about?
Winner (and that can only be you) gets a let's say...mmm....HC with You Know Who.

Heart-to-Heart

You Know Who has noticed some drastic changes in the self and was talking about them with someone. Let's call this someone N. N affirmed the changes. You Know Who felt happy and good.
When one is surrounded by positive people, positive changes take place.
You Know Who has also noticed that You Know Who has started ignoring all the bad things that happen around and so, Life's GOOD :)

Life That Was

You Know Who was reading DT today and remembering the life and times at DT.
Those forget-the-self type hectic schedules.
Those never-stop-writing sessions.
Those never-ending deadlines.
Those thunderous screams of the even bigger YOU KNOW WHO.
Those lovely bylines.
Those fifteen hours plus of working hours.
Those pats on the back from the bigger YOU KNOW WHO.
Those big birthday cakes from the bigger YOU KNOW WHO.
Those women who mattered (and still do).
That then Chief-Sub who still recognises my voice at one go.
That photographer who still is THE BEST.
Nostalgic...eh?

Rock Star

There are people who are never ever around and yet hold such an important place in your life. Rock Star is that person for me.
He has no strings attached,
He can do the simplest task in the most unique way one can think of,
He steers away from complications.
He has always believed in me,
He loves me for who I am,
He used to (and still does) let me be.
We talk maybe four times in one year since we don't live in the same city any more,
We don't email/IM each other,
Yet we know we are there for each other,
And that makes us US.